Can Control?

Recently I realized that I was a control freak; that I always wanted to have a sense of balance. Not really immediate balance, but at least an impression that things are going normally. I don’t like sudden disruptions to the schedule…so even if I’m off to a vacation, I really need to make sure that everything is fine before I leave. Unexpected twists can really knock me off ..
That’s why I try to maintain a good relationship with the Lord. It is through Him that I find that balance in my life. Growing up in the mission field got me started well, but did work some disadvantages…thinking that I knew Him well enough sometimes gave me no reason to know Him more. I’ve learned my lesson over and over again, I understand today that time spent with Him each day not only makes me whole, it keeps me sane.